You can't exactly tell how red i was from the photo 'coz of the exposure of the light from the camera, but i was really like, head to toe red. And no, i was not drunk, i just get really red when i drink. I mean c'mon, me? Drunk? ... never... hehe. But i have seriously cut down on drinking if you want to compare to the party girl i was before. Not to mention, i don't even go crazy on drinking anymore or just simply drink all that often(though i must confess i do love my tequila and white wine), but this was my friend's birthday... so several drinks couldn't hurt right? Plus, i needed a good end to this memorable summer!

Another thing i see from the picture that i question myself is... i don't know if rather you can rarely see your collarbones anymore mean you've gained some weight, or... can't seeing your toes when you look down means you have seriously gained some weight? ...'coz i can still see my toes, but not so much of my collarbones... therefore, i would like to think rarely seeing my collarbones would be the answer to my weight gainning problem. Cries* ...i need to stop eating! Which will be possible 'coz summer is over, and i'm going back to school! So that will mean, no more crazy food outtings every single night! Or else i'm donating those jeans and shorts............ and possibly tops and dresses. Sigh. And don't get me wrong, i don't diet like crazy, 'coz i LOVE food... it's just my clothes are starting to feel a bit hmm... tight. And yeah, that makes me sad, 'coz i do not want to donate my clothes away...

Gosh... i sound like a emo child.

Anyways, i think Xanga hates me, 'coz whenever i want to blog, it just lags like hell. Like seriously, is it me? Or is everyone experiencing the same thing?

That will be all for now...

Blah. It's almost 3am in the morning. And no, i didn't exactly choose to stay up this late, but 'coz i had to. Blah. I had just finished my autobiography and study plan for applying school this Sunday, so yeah. I wanted to make sure it was, VERY close-to-Perfect, under my expectation, so yeah... lots of editting there and there. Therefore, i guess in a way, i did choose to make myself stay up this late. But the point right is... I'm done! So yayyyyyyy.

A glass of iced-cold black German beer would be good now...

Anyways, i know Redbull isn't really good for you, and yeah, it contains a lot of sugar, i know... i know. But Redbull was the only thing that could keep me awake and concerntrated with the things i had to do for the past two week, therefore, yes, i have been depending on them for over a week, with a can or two per day. And i will try to cut down on it starting the beginning of next week, 'coz i still have to apply for school on Sunday, so i'm sure i'll be drinking in a can before i do that, to be on my very best, mentally, emotionally, and physically.

 
just thought i would show my love towards Redbull by taking a picture with it even though i'm totally make-up-less and bummed out and have PANDA eyes, that i was born with... sigh. And NO, i am not naked... i'm wearing a tube top okay! ...or am i? ...haha, jk.

But seriously... i DO really like drinking energy drinks. Ever since the day i arrived in Taiwan, like almost two years ago, i was literally being separated from the love of my life, Red Rockstar energy drinks! It was really heartbreaking for me, you know? I know it sounds silly... but yeah, i did manage to stuff 2 cans in my luggage for emergency doses while i'm in Taiwan, haha.

I remember how my ex-boyfriend use to get really upset over me, 'coz i would always seem to drink energy drinks during the evening, haha. And yeah, i would suffer insomnia, and complain in the morning on how i'm very tired... blah, blah, blah. But i seriously couldn't help it! I just crave for the taste of it in the evening! Anyways, i was talking to a friend earlier about my massive doses of Redbull, and i mentioned how i miss Red Rockstars, and he is going to send me some by the end of this week! So yay! I am officially the happinest girl on the planet right now.

Okay, well... it's getting late. I should really be sleeping, 'coz tomorrow morning i have to get my pictures taken, then after that i will be hanging out with my best friend, who is leaving me next Tuesday... *cries* so yeah, i would need a lot of energy to hang out with her while i can.

G'nights and sweet dreams to y'all!

Pudding is one of my good friends from work. And hmm... her birthday was actually several weeks ago, haha. But 'coz my laptop was send for fix at the time, i never really got to do this blog... so here it is!

birthday girl and me

some of the girls and the birthday girl (taken from a friend's iphone)

Lyla and i playing around with her iphone picture modes

...here comes the weird pictures of me... haha.

everything seems fine...

then i guess something supposably happened? 'Coz my mouth was obviously wide opened, hahaha

and then there's this very up-close picture of me with extreme flash on my face making me look like a ghost... haha

Honestly, i know a lot of people who will just delete pictures like this, 'coz they don't look "good" or look like themselves in them. But i really don't care. I mean, i think these photos are so REAL. It captures moments you can look back and laugh about, you know? So yeah, just thought i would share my laughs with you guys, hehe.

P.S. i've been kind of down lately... 'coz i feel like my English has really just gone down rock bottom, you know? *cries*... this is what i get for comming back to Taiwan... BLAH. Almost two years... forgive me one day if you guys start to not understand a thing i'm saying okay? ...unlike my best friends who make fun of English all the time... blahhhhhh. "Hello, my name's Millian, and i am a fob"... fml.

That's all!

Yay! Finally i'm able to upload pictures... anyways, here are the pictures i promised from my previous blog from my outtings with my best friend! ...enjoy!

Yong Kong Street & "East Area"

wonton noodle soup for lunch, and vegetables that my best friend doesn't really like, haha

spring onion pancake as a snack after lunch... i know, we're pigs, hehe

as you can see on the very corner... the guy is making ours... cheese flavor! Yum! 

spotted Audrey Hepburn's classic photos in a jewlery shop... she really is beautiful!

very random trip to the bookstore in the pen section

this is how my best friend likes to test out her pens, haha... loser!

as for me, this is how i like to test out mine... hehe

don't let that cute smile food you, she's EVILLLLLLLLL... just kidding, hehe

bought some mochi and crepe to munch out from a famous mochi place called, Ziang Yie

the plastic display at the place... yum ... even though none of the stuff in there are ediable, haha

here's where we snap a picture while we are waiting for the customers in front of us that's taking FOREVER!! And yeah, i don't exactly have the best photography skills, haha.

in the MRT, going out separate ways back home, calling it a day!

Shrek 4, Godiva, and Tutti Frutti at Taipei 101, and shoe/ food browsing at Taipei Main Station

hey cutie, ASL? ...hehe

taking a picture while we wait for our food to be ready... hehe 

curry for lunch at Vieshow food court

people snack on popcorn and pop, but my best friend and i like to snack on Godiva truffles during a movie, hehe

yummmmm.

my best friend doing what she does best... while we wait to be let in the theater! ...cute!

here's my best friend with the fugly I-Max glasses, haha

and here's me with the fugly I-Max glasses that made me dizzyyyy

after the movie we took some pictures with the Shrek crew, haha

Shrek is mean muggin'... haha

"reDONculous"... muhahahaha

aw look, my best friend blends in with the Shrek family and friends... cute!

and yay! Frozen yogurt time! ...i seriously forgot what my best friend had, but i remember hers' was topped with oatmeal... yum! 

and here's me, a very happy girl with her frozen yogurt ready to just dive innnn!

blueberry on the bottom, and peach on the top topped with chocolate chips... yum!

this explains why i should come here ALL THE TIME... hehe

Taipei 101 is pink!! ...can't really tell on the picture... but Taipei 101's lights actually changes through-out the week

after we left Taipei 101 area, we went and shopped around Taipei Main station, while my best friend shops for some sandals

here she is, ready to pay for her sandals!

cute eh? ...and they were very cheap too! One of few reasons i like about Taiwan... not only is the food cheap, but clothes and shoes are also quite cheap. But even cheaper if you pull out your bargainning skills like me, hehe 

Hot Pot Dinner Date

random scrubbed out hot pot dinner date with my best friend and another friend (picture below) who also came and pay a visit to Taiwan

here's Anita... not a very good picture of her, but i was lazy to snap another one, 'coz i VERY stuffed from all the hot pot and ice cream, hehe 

That's all for now!

I was looking through some pictures on my friends' facebook, my facebook, and on my computer and etc. and have realized so many things could of happened for me in the past, but didn't happen. But the one thing that really got to me, was the relationships i could of had. So many moments in my life in Canada, especially those "golden" years of my life, i could of grabbed onto the chances i was given but have missed the chances 'coz i got myself into the kind of scene in which i was so lost in at the moment, i didn't realize all the possible good things (i now assume but will probably never know) that could of happened for me then.

I'm not regretting anything that has happened to me or could of happened for me. But there are just so many what ifs' trailing in my thoughts. What if i wasn't so caught up in the party life? Would i have not messed up so many times, dissapointing the ones' i love? Or got myself into so much shit and blackholes i thought i couldn't get out of? ...it really is a mytery... and is something i would never know anymore, 'coz those times have already passed. But one thing i do know now, and matters the most to me is... i've been in a very good shape for a while now, and have great friends who i adore, and that also adores me. I love you guys. Without you guys, mainly my two best friends, i wouldn't know how to continue living my life.

But i would still like to say sorry to myself or to the good guys who i've turned down on in the past. It really wasn't you guys' fault that i've ignored you guys' or stop trying, it was me who let myself down and didn't see the good that you guys' could've gave me when i was too busy getting myself drunk or high. It was me that didn't try to give myself a chance to be with you guys when you guys clearly did, 'coz truth is, i didn't want to give up that feeling in which i thought was good, too good. So thank you guys' for the chances, and for what you guys saw in me that was still there, in which i am now.

"What's that you like about me?"
"Not only are you a beautiful, independent and smart girl... but you've also got potential."

P.S. i still can't upload pictures, so looks like i might have to try tomorrow again to finish my previous blog, sorry!

That's all